It’s a brand spanking new year, and a time for me to reflect on the past and look forward to the future.
Looking back, 2008 was one of the best and hardest years of my life.
Becoming a mother really threw me for a loop, and I was nowhere near prepared for the high highs and the low lows of being a new mom. I guess you can never really be prepared for it, but when it’s your turn it’s truly overwhelming. The exhaustion and the mental craziness of sleep deprivation offset by the pure joy of holding my son in my arms and realizing that I created this miracle… Well, there aren’t really words for all that. “Overwhelming.” is the best I can say. But I’m so thankful to be his mother, and to have been a part of the miracle of bringing him into this world.
Even through all the joy, it’s been a hard year for us as well, both physically and mentally and emotionally. We’ve found that becoming parents can add another layer of stress in a marriage that makes even a strong couple feel like heading for the hills. Add to all that the fact that the depressing economy ain’t what she used to be and so many people are running around like Chicken Little… it makes me want to go hide out in the woods somewhere until it all blows over. I just want 2009 to be a year of renewal and hope and happiness. I am so tired of worrying when the bottom is going to fall out, so I think I will choose to live my life moment by moment and worry about the things that are out of my control when and if they should ever happen. And hopefully, God willing, they never will.
I plan to pull a Scarlett O’Hara more often. Tomorrow is another day, folks.
I hope you all have a wonderful and safe New Year!